Live~NRGY

\MARK POST #6221

http://www.ottawacitizen.com/life/coming+bisexuality+real+thing/11261560/story.html

Okay, first I was going to concentrate on other priorities, but this makes it important enough to comment.

I never really considered myself, BI-SEXUAL. Being brought up within a straight all Western version of the ideal hetero-sexual monogamy Catholic model with both parents still married for almost 60 years, it’s hard to shake OMG do I love women attraction. Got it down pat where all the perfect numbers do the trick for me and charges my 1000 horsepower motor into a supercharged turbo.

That said, in 1986 I was introduced by a girlfriend into the world of 3somes. She was definitely lesbian and she enjoyed it more than just a bit. And I have to say, it rocked my world being 28 at the time getting it on with 2 chicks. I loved both of them and wanted it to continue. However that fell apart when they moved to Montreal and I wanted to stay in Ottawa. Off they went and the next spring one of them came back wanting to rekindle the relationship minus the other whom she had split from. By then, it was too late. I was already into another intimate hetero-sexual relationship, had quit my job and was making a transition into the world of alternative health from mainstream all western diets and fast food.

But I have to honestly say, while in that 3some, both girls getting it on, on their own time without me – with my permission(they asked me) I have to say…. wow did that sound like over the top fun or what. I had no idea what was going on within closed doors – they requested privacy which I reluctantly agreed to, but since I was in an adjacent bedroom, I couldn’t help but hear what was going on. Being too much to handle, I had to often step out for fresh air. WOW – HOT or OMG what. What fun and weird feeling going to all female bars in Montreal at the time being straight and not exactly sure what to expect. Lots of hot women, but always gave them their distance and spaces. And yes, there were lots of possibilities, but I never went down that road exploring them as part of that 3some.

Which is where this part comes in – that singular event is what opened my mind to the possibilities of 1 day wanting to get it on with a guy. Who, how, when, where, why didn’t matter so much as wanting to have just as much fun as those 2 girls had together in the privacy of their room.

Sure enough…. I was seduced a decade later(another story), a guy and I just let it happen. I enjoyed it enough that it felt safe enough to continue exploring here and there when the occasion came about.

So…. fast forward to today and with all the changes of the last decade and a half, married, kids, divorce…. enter the Montreal Dungeon. I have to say without reserve, WOW OMG FLIP ME OUT – PERFECT SAFE PLACE TO EXPLORE EVERYTHING. Leave it there and then go about your normal life, if and only if, you can manage the extreme kinks(not everything works for everyone) that are better explored, but not lived on a daily basis.

What fips out the SOCIAL HIDDEN AGENDA CROWD is that I managed to pull myself away from all the extreme without intervention and outside help all on my own. USUALLY IT’S CALLED JAIL, REHAB & SHRINKS… ALL IN 1 SENTENCE.

MY PURPOSE AND INTENT WAS CLEAR, AND I BELIEVE EVERYONE HAD A DAMN GOOD IDEA WHAT IT WAS, BUT DOUBTED I WOULD SUCCEED.

A-SEXUALL (HIGHEST STATUS ONE CAN ACHIEVE ON A PHYSICAL LEVEL) – TERM RESERVED FOR PEOPLE WHO HAVE BECOME ENLIGHTENED IN 1 FASHION OR ANOTHER BY WHATEVER MEANS IN ORDER TO ELEVATE THEMSELVES FROM THE BONDS, SHACKLES, CHAINS OF MASTER/SLAVE DOMINATION OF EVERYDAY LIFE. NO MORE GETTING ON ONE’S KNEES TO HUMBLE YOURSELF LOWER THAN ANOTHER FOR THE PURPOSE OF SERVING IN IGNORANCE AND WANT.

THE RELATIONSHIPS I HAVE AND WANT ARE SIMPLE NOW – OPEN PEER LEVEL. NO ONE OWNS ANYONE, THEY MUST BE EASY TO WALK INTO, DANCE, PLAY HAVE FUN AND MOST OF ALL BE NO BRAINER(HARDER SAID THAN DONE). EVERYTHING IS UNIQUE, REAL AND IN THE MOMENT.

‘HEAT’ IS THE WILDCARD THAT PEOPLE DON’T GET AND GET INTO TROUBLE BECAUSE OF IT. EVERYTHING FLOWS FROM IT WITHIN YOU AND ALL AROUND YOU. SOUNDS FAMILIAR DOESN’T IT. THE RIGHT ‘HEAT’ IS THE BEAST YOU CONTROL AND BECOMES HEAVEN ON EARTH. THE WRONG ONE… ENSLAVES YOU.

I FIRST CONSIDER MYSELF AS FOLLOWS –

A-SEXUALL – MASTER OF MY OWN DESTINY & NRGY… FOREVER BROKEN FROM REBIRTH CYCLES OF KARMA

BI-SEXUAL – WHEN THE RIGHT OCCASION WITH THE RIGHT PERSON CALLS. IT IS NOT A MATTER OF HUNTING DOWN SOMEONE, BUT RATHER IF AN OPEN SPACE FOR PLAY PRESENTS ITSELF AND IT FEELS OKAY, RIGHT AND SAFE. WHY NOT ? IT HAS TO BE MUTUAL AND CONSENSUAL.

GAY – I’VE HAD GREAT EXPERIENCES AND WANT MORE ! SIMPLE ENOUGH. BESIDES, BEING MALE, I UNDERSTAND GUYS HEAD TO TOE.

HETERO – WOMEN ARE BY FAR OMG… ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL WHEN THEY TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES. I’VE BEEN BROUGHT UP ON ALL THINGS WOMEN AND I LOVE WHAT THEY REPRESENT. THAT MEANS INSIDE EMOTIONS ARE IN CHECK AND THEIR COMMUNICATION SKILLS ARE SHARP WITHOUT BEING ABUSIVE. YEP, TALL ORDER. IT’S REALLY A LONG STORY HERE, NEEDLESS TO SAY – I KNOW WHAT I LOVE ! MORE LATER ON OCT. 19th.

That just about explains it all, but the reality is a little more fluid and temporal.