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Michael Gorlick Documents Coming Out On YouTube.

I would like to say to Michael that posting this video on You Tube is an act of courage and congratulate him on the best way he has decided to display and express himself.

In retrospect, my own journey and exploration of all things gay, being with men and spending intimate moments with a few felt like a natural extension of who and where I was in time.

After having spent a lot of time both in Montreal and Ottawa in gay circles, I came to the realization that the people who pushed and shoved me into out of the box experiences were manipulated to do so by those who’s views contradicted gay lifestyles. In fact I would say that the whole point of the exercise was to put me in an embarassing, depressive, aggressive state to not only lash out against my ex-wife and harm my children during the separation and divorce phase, but to also shock my parents and family into corners of despair.

Throughout it all, I always accepted what I was doing and fully came to terms with being setup in situations that would normally have caused anyone else extreme harm to the point of suicidal thought and actually going through with it. Much of the going on within the circle of gay men were on the fetish sides and in normal social circumstances considered unacceptable. And this is where I got my strength and thrills from knowing exactly what these people where up to trying to get me to push envelopes with shock values to justify their own behaviours, budgets and manipulative game strategies.

What I wouldn’t have given to be there seeing the many faces of utter despair knowing that whatever I was subjected too, I never repudiated or was shocked by it. Never was I forced to undergo anything I didn’t like or want and was free to do as I please. And that was my kick. In choosing that which I knew would be totally out of the box, not being able to reproduce in the same manner so as to not fall into the traps setup for me. With that said, I profited every single moment from knowing exactly what I was doing and took advantage of every twist and turn, internally within my body, mind and spirit to out fox hounding dogs at my feet.

I was lucky, extremely lucky for not falling into traps and knowing exactly why and what I was doing. Not many people can say that, when coming out. Most subjected to extreme emotional states and in my opinion the pressure is on one to explain themselves so that they are accepted by other groups of people claiming to be the moral majority with superior social skillsets in life that gay men aren’t even close to being able to admit to or even navigate.

It would be ironic one day, YIN/YANG being what it is – that straight people – hetero-sexual in nature have to come out and explain to LGBTQ et al that they are coming out of the closet and only love a straight monogamous hetero-sexual lifestyle.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with being of one type of sexual orientation or another. It is other people’s perceptions of being unable to accept reality as it is and to make space for differences.

Yes, nature intended men and women to have children the old fashion way if you can call it that. But marriage is a dying institution bereft with so many pitfalls, twists and turns that as tall as it stands, it is sure to fall just as Goliath did once. That fall squarely on societies own arrogance and intent by governments to make it a valuation exercise on divorce, one winner takes all and courts oblige without in many instances thinking things through because of time constraints and efficiency. Besides, the more painful public ones get short shifted and fast tracked to avoid the spotlights of media. Children are always the losers. Divorce laws are responsible for that and that has got to change.

So there you have it in a nutshell, my coming out having the time of my life then, belatedly. Now I’m on a crossroad between being primarily A-Sexuall when I need my own company only – absolutely the greatest thing on the planet to being Bi-Sexual and choosing a partner to have fun with when wanting to be physical. At the present time sometime spent with women is on my agenda, but it’s never a priority and a must have or must do. Never with urgency and I’m thankful for that.

Hard as the opposition to my current position is, pushing me just won’t work. I’m sure everyone is in despair again and would love to see the head scratching and hair pulling events that goes on. When the time is right, it’ll happen. If it doesn’t something to knock my socks off just might do the trick – hey meeting GOD in person is a good contender.

Again congrats Michael and enjoy, be careful and mindful of what’s happening around you and stay in touch via YouTube.