Live~NRGY

Everything about yesterday was perfect as a Calgary Virgin. I was shy and nervous as hell, but the host and company was absolutely marvelous. As a first experience, it left me with a great impression.

Once I got settled in and over for the most part over the inner nature of me, things went smoothly. I had no trouble breaking through barriers because I believe that whatever happens is for a reason. I was my way of saying I’m finally me without the preconceived ideas that society has about gay sex and the shame heaved upon men and women over time.

So what am I doing and have done since then – of course – BASELINING MYSELF. What goes in must come out. Simple math. Measuring the natural process of heat release within my own body with as little interference as possible. I want to measure the potential NRGY with what took place.

Off the bat – right brain hemisphere and frontal cortex set alight. As usual heat buildup in my body takes a long time because of my body density. Rapid heart beat, but no sexual excitement and a large part of that was intentional on both our parts. Music of course, but no use of Amyl Nirtrate which I believe is the ignition in combination with prescribed ‘medicine’.

Ah, but here is something I had not noticed before – skin sensitivity to ambient air temperature. I would have thought the other one would have been the culprit as in the past, however this one seems similar too. There’s also a contraction of the inner body’s whole digestive system.

So I’m intentionally avoiding triggers to see how long and exactly where the ‘HEAT’ hides and lays residence while awaiting it’s release through the process of time.

Once I get a value, then it’s a matter of judging quantities to play with outcomes – right ! Well almost – formula’s also play an important role.

So once again, after 15 months of sexual hiatus – as the man said yesterday – welcome to LIFE. Glad I made the decision – thanks a bunch again.

xoxoxo

LiveNRGY