Live~NRGY

Zero interest in everything Edmonton – sorry, no natural NRGY attraction to it – magnetic thing. That was easy. Finally got butt to move off bed and filled in application for courses at Drop In for 3 week course in January for all certifications. Will be available for full time work starting Feb 1, in the meantime on/off to just get food and pay for misc. and try to get much needed rest still. Body is doing much better having come down from toxic shock syndrome with coffee(necessary evil on many levels – God I hate coffee). Getting rid of the majority of toxins from work this past summer. Not a pretty sight to see – but hey it’s out, and that’s what counts.

So getting ready to look at all options including education/work combo for the next year and beyond. Education is on the front burner with work as the secondary motivator, but still important enough to adjust for kids arrival. Question that remains in my mind is what’s up with NRGY exactly. Body is starting to sync on the same wavelength with ringing sound in my mind and NRGY feels like it’s starting to have a mind of it’s own. Don’t know where that one is going, but taking it one day at time. I would prefer to have it in my control, but obviously not there by a country mile. I guess I’ll have to take my next 45 – 60 day time off to have a get together and little chat with it – sooner rather than later. Funny how people seem to think that depression is unnatural. They haven’t figured out what happens in the process and typify it as being harmful and at all costs try to get people of out it. Very interesting to have watched people’s reactions to depression now for so many years. All clued out – and my guess is that they equate it with all the wrong things instead of seeing it’s value of being part of a natural human process of finding equillibrum within oneself – something that only an individual can come to terms with and must do on their own. The internal brick wall sort of speak that each and everyone must face alone and resolve. The insistence of drugging and maintaining the state of depression is far worst. It is part of the natural spiritual process of coming to terms with your own worst enemy – yourself. I for myself have always realized that it is much better to make sure you listen to what your body/mind/spirit is trying to tell you and adjust accordingly – rest for however long it works for you – then depression isn’t an issue – it’s time out to re-energize. The idiocy of psychology and mental health medicine have it all wrong around it. They should go and do doctorates with American Native healers and get a soulful of wisdom and experience on how to truly help people. Doing it all from the outside just simply doesn’t work. The actual purpose of depression should be called ‘TEMPERING OF THE SOUL/SPIRIT’ otherwise what results from out ‘normal’ current system is a ‘SHATTERING’ of it.

Got a few loose ends to tidy up before New Year’s comes around the corner and must decide exactly how to do next years NRGY. That is the question and I haven’t been paying attention to it with all this End of the World hyperspace marketing. Whatever that looks like, I’m sure I’ll be exactly what it’s suppose to be. Great finally – next time when I have time, I’ll do a check-in with the next set of Mayans and their calendars. Just didn’t have time to study them all and stay with what mattered most. Simple being the keyword. If I had wanted to the the brains for Skynet, I would have applied for the doctorate at Terminator U a long time ago. But not my thing, just an average Joe Blow suits me fine – blend in and be LiveNRGY works for me – all in realtime. Easy, real, conservation of NRGY and most of all Playfull. The way a real Dog likes it. Incredible and very stressful to see so many lost souls, confused, in pain and without the slightest clue how to get out of their own traps. Got to spend more time at the DI to understand it deeper. Just have a peripheral glance of it, cause it’s so hard emotionally to see. What to do ? Yet I know that it’s what it takes to understand triage. Well one day at a time, I’m sure something will clue me in – just having got all the right things at the right time yet. This damn thing of in the moment sometimes gets to be a bit much, but planning is way worst. Gonna have to work on a better mathematical formula to make it more efficient – think the model is outdated and needs change. Great time to re-work it next year. Let’s just see where this all leads – lots out of my hands, yet that’s where it all rests, strange today as I was riding the LRT and watching every single individual riding it – being responsible for all of them – surreal and wish I could say OMG but that isn’t the case. Well we’re all on the same boat – whatever happens happens and that choice isn’t mine – so got to have faith that those in charge know how to navigate the waters and know what direction they need to change. All I can do is what and stay in control now. NRGY ultimately decides like it or not for all of us. We listen or don’t and that’s hard to do when things get so busy, everyone’s forgotten how to take time out to rest within and out and just play. Work still belongs in the scheme of things, but it’s nature has become twisted. Signing out for tonight. Got to get up early in the morning – ruff stuff.