Live~NRGY

Okay, got fired and handed walking papers today. OMG AM I GOOD OR WHAT. Had to wait it out, knew it was coming.

Macrobiotic saying – the BIGGER THE FRONT, THE BIGGER THE BACK.

Direct translation from LiveNRGY —- >

Promises are dirt cheap in Cowboy Country.

Pissing and hosing the ground hoping that flowers will bloom without being trampled on is just an illusion of the mind.

Did I win that contest with the I don’t give a shit guy. Well the way I look at it, he’s still in hell. Poor him, he’s excellent at the work he does, if fact so much, he’ll end up living and dying in that job. I feel sorry for him, but hey – as the saying goes, I don’t give a fuck. Oops did I say that out loud – yikes, okay I do feel something, subconscious will have to spit out the words and when they do, I’ll share them with you. No lost love though. Mr. Hardcore drug addict. Another yikes. He’s a danger on the job and elsewhere. But hey, let the record speak for itself. At least other co-workers on the job were witnesses to him wanting to clobber me.

Ms. HotFlash PMS – got her wish. She’ll of course be back on the job doing her fine detail work on super expensive stairs with one of the bosses. Can’t wait to hear him swear again when she screws up and fucks it up with another new sucker getting the screws put to him in an install and he goes ballistic. Poor him, no wonder 17th looks so yummy. Well at least I’ve got to give it to him. He’s sharp it would seem with numbers and money. Does that win points with me. No definite answers yet, haven’t seen him through a complete job all by himself without help. That’s the real test in my opinion of putting your money where your mouth is. Sure the little stuff is doable all by yourself. But the big huge suckers, hmmm, all by yourself – now that takes balls and I haven’t seen his. No sexual innuendo intended. At least mine where front and center. Period no games. I’m all lined up if someone wants to put me to the test. Give me the tools, and the worlds mine. Okay, so I got the tools and the worlds mine. Do I want it, hell no, but I do want to make sure it’s okay for the kids. Hence my appearance for a good while yet.

Now where was I, oh yeah…. once upon a time !

Okay went to Money Mart with the reminder of my severance pay from the stair shop to pay off the $200 I borrowed on Sunday. No can do. I got to pay extra to pay off a free $200 cash payday loan advance. $7.00 extra it would seem. They don’t even want to see the money before it’s due date on the next bi-weekly payday – Sept 21. Well, you can imagine that won’t happen now. And too boot, if I’m late paying it on the 21st of the month, another $45.00 gets tacked on. Boy, the Big 5 Banks and their Visa/Mastercard operations must be livid at not being able to charge 600% interest on their credit cards plus user fees like Money Mart. After all if crooks can get away with it legally, hell why not us too. We’ve got as much risk right. Oh, almost forgot the workaround – equity loans. Okay Big 5 you’re off the hook. Figured out another angle. Good for yous!

Now that leaves us with Mobilicity.

Made a monthly payment by the net on Sunday. $36.50 monthly fee – paid with Money Mart’s Titanium Prepaid Visa Card. Love it for all net transactions. Normally. Well, imagine my surprise when I went to the nearby N.E. Costco- you know the one where there apparently was a shooting the night before. Right beside the kids toy store and closet organizer store. Well Costco doesn’t take Visa. So off I go to ATM to get $60 cash to buy food. Nope, ATM only spits out $20, $40, $80, $100. No $60. Imagine that. Okay 2 transactions. $40, okay good. $20, oh boy no sufficient funds. Shit what the hell. Just went to Money Mart and applied for a $200 advance payday loan. Paid $58.50 to WestJet to change my flight to Ottawa from Sept 10 to October. No problem. Paid Mobilicity $36.50 monthly fee. Right. Good. Lots of money to make sure I get through the next 2 weeks with food. Off to Costco and no sufficient funds. What the hell. Go back to Money Mart. Oh, it seems like Mobilicity took 2 payments out for $36.50 and one for $37.00. That leaves me now with only $19.70 on Visa Card. Okay, what about the other $37.00 I ask counterguy. Call Visa and ask. I’m trying to call Mobilicity a thousand times to get call center. No luck. Finally after cashing in $19.70 plus in pocket cash, I’ve got $60 to buy food at Costco. Had to go through the store a second time after almost an hours screwing around the first time and returning everything cause I only had $40 from first ATM transaction. Finished buying food for $60 at Costco and behold, Mobilcity answers phone now and says, $37.00 money was never taken from my Visa account. Only $36.50. Okay back to Money Mart. Same deal there, call Visa Call Center. They say Moblicity did take the money, but they refunded the amount. Only now it will take 15 days to get my $37.00 back. Convenient, wouldn’t you say. Okay I’ll fix everyone’s clock later on this matter. Elephant memory and more. Karma DB book is working overtime trust me.

And today, after going to Money Mart to pay off my payday advance loan. No can do. Won’t work, it’ll cost an extra $7.00 for a total of $207.00 if I pay now. On the 21st it’ll cost only $0 – nadda, zip, zilch. $200 only. Can’t even pay a portion of it off.

Now let’s go back to Scotiabank shall we. Been working at CMC stairs since June 12. Went to bank to deposit paycheck, but bank was doing holdback. Raise the limit I asked. No problem $1500, but not this Friday, Sept 7, not 3 months yet. It’ll have to wait a week more before we can release the hold back. Would you like all your money now. Okay give it too me. I’m suppose to be on a flight to Ottawa on Monday, need the money to get back to Calgary. Good, let’s buy a few things so that when I’m ready to return, things are tickey boo. Only problem is that I didn’t listen to my subconscious. In fact I decided to totally ignore it. Lost $800 out of my pants on Saturday. Well that serves me right that I’m a stupid idiot for not listening to my subconscious and you can call me whatever you want in your books for deciding to ignore it consciously. Serves me right. I had enough warning that lots of things where in the works, and me and my stupid open mind wanted to see where this was going to go as usual. Well, $800 poorer, Money Mart and Moblicity fucked and co-worker wanting to knock my lights out, Ms. HotFlash PMS losing it, and off course bosses that agree with everyone so that the shop doesn’t fall apart. Hey who in there right minds would want to work in disfunctional work environments and put up with that shit. Only little me to see what it’s really like and get the inside scoop on how fucked up it is – I won’t say the words now – later, baby, later.

Anyways, credit Mars in Scorpio or whatever money Gods and deities you worship. Hell is getting closer I sense for everyone. No doubt about it, I’ll listen to my subconscious just to make sure I’m on track and stay on track. It’s not looking good from where I sit and see things. But hey, that’s me. We’ll see won’t we. Don’t get me wrong here. The only way to fix this is to fix the system. I don’t see anything happening on a scale that even remotely suggests shit moving down the pipe to the manure spreaders and being tossed right back into hell. So with all the B.S. games from here to Timbuktu, who’s ready and all puckered up to meet their makers? There’s no sense denying that once things start moving, they’ll be on the fast-track and unstoppable. Just the way it is. I know what I’ve done and it can’t be undone. One little tiny pearl is all it took. And humanities conscious ability to understand the science behind it, on a micro/macro cosmic level. Many versions, but all it takes is one. My feeling is that in the shape and condition I’m in, no way am I able to do anything. I’m in conservation mode and slowly in the process of Macrobiotic speak – Yangizing. Oriental saying – Yinizing. Not good in my opinion. We’ll all know for sure when I get there.

I’m sure I’ve forgotten something, so I’ll stop here and we’ll see when I’m somewhat recuperated. In the meantime, no despair on my part about lost $800. It just sucks. Wish at least I could have gotten laid for that amount of money. Oh well, c’est la Danse de la Vie. Well rent is paid up for October. Got till November 1, and then maybe all hell breaks loose then…. hang on, boys and girls cause I believe we’re all going to be going for a ride together if my plans are on the money. I’m riding my money on Horse #6. That’s the underdog #6 who’s on a streak. That’ll leave us with just one more 6 to go. Who knows, the Universe provides?