Live~NRGY

Back in 1988, I could do everything I’m able to do now, except I had no Baselines and References to go on. Everything was scary as hell with all the new NRGY moving through my body. In fact I was thoroughly addicted to meditating non-stop almost 24 hours a day doing nothing but giving myself Orgasms non-stop. Absolutely thrilling and out of this world experience to just sit there and do that.

Of course, I stopped, it didn’t make any logical sense to me at the time and had no road map to go on. Bingo…. fast forward to today and voila a repeat of the past due to the Dungeon and Music. I’ve dropped the Dungeon stuff, and moving away from music also. What happens with music is that it adds an element of excitment that makes it much harder to control…. Hence the absolute need for me to remain even more vigilant so as not to cause harm. I’ve already done that I believe and it’s a matter of time before payback. 3 pearls sent out March 2011 in my total and absolute rage about OCH. They’re out of my control – whatever happens too bad, so sad now. The world can point a finger directly at them for inciting and causing whatever. OCH can point at whomever is directly responsible if they wish. Not my problem any longer. I had warned everyone on the subject a long time ago.

So with that, I’m slowly going back to all internal no sounds mode to be totally in self control mode – better safe than sorry. However there will be many a time between now and then where the only safe way to deal with overflow is to override internal mode and listen and/or go out dancing. Dancing makes harmonizing of everything much easier. No choice now that I have been exposed to so much contaminants – working on elimination but it’ll have to be a slow process otherwise the risk is just as real in creating a backfire just the same as doing nothing. Yin/Yang

In the meantime, I am using work as an elimination vehicle – it is my desire to work as well as to use it’s powerful healing effects to fix what’s broken – in this case self empowerment, confidence in myself and above all spiritual clarity and direction. Without that, everyone is fucked if I cannot Master these few remaining elements to overcome all previous attempts to have me successfully fail at everything. The choice is yours now…

Trust me when I say I’ve divided myself in so many ways, that it even boggles my mind… no chances with NRGY. It’s imperative that I succeed now at all costs for humanity’s sake. I don’t want it all, but at least peace of mind and soul will transform and stop what I have put into motion prior to my arrival here on earth. So be it…. let’s just say I reverse engineered everything – Begin with the End in Mind.