Live~NRGY

Have been going back through time in spiral fashion, especially my own life for the last 6 months one neuron at a time to find links between events. Very damning evidence of interference and manipulation. But it’s much worst than I thought possible. As it’s been over 6 months now of complete awareness, my task is much harder that I expected about what I’ve done with my own energy. Time is ticking and not in anyone’s favor. That’s been the price for hitting the awareness button – just in case almost ad nauseaum backup plans. So the current plan has been to hit the streets in person as opposed to staying hidden in my own little shell and seek why it is worth it to save what we all cherish. So far, everyone has failed me, but especially my own kids. That was not the way to go about it with me – simply asking would have gone much further. Now the energy required is at least twice as hard at least, given the state of things.

I could demonstrate what I’m talking about in terms of years, events, people, things, what was said, what was done, the moods, the contexts, the nuisances, the whole shebang, but in all honesty what would be the point except to look silly and scare the hell out of everyone.

Let me go to a Saturday morning just after November 22 in 1963 – Nov 23, when all the Saturday morning cartoons suddenly went off the air and a funeral procession was airing on all TV channels. I was pissed – I remember vividly watching the funeral procession of cars on TV and understanding something very important had just happened but could not understand the context. That is the date I consider becoming of age and aware of a larger world around me.

Again, in high school, consciously deciding not too pursue genetic engineering for fear that I would be used as a pawn and any understanding of the power of genetics would be used for the wrong reasons.

Again, consciously deciding not to pursue my dream of wanting to become an astronaut. As everyone knows by now, I a damn determined guy. I know I would have somehow made it into the program – whatever the cost. Alas, with the 2 shuttle explosions, and especially the 1st one in January 1986, I knew there would have been a good chance of somehow having been on that shuttle. If not, then by design with the landing of the second – Yin/Yang.

So as I dig ever deeper into my own subconscious mind one memory neuron at a time, you will forgive me for sometimes being astonished that it has taken me so long to become conscious and aware. Still not enough and too my liking. There is still one more step to go and it is a race for time. Who knows, not even myself. I have done this on purpose to avoid corruption knowing what my potentials are. Believe me if I had access to them here and now, I would now have hesitated to use them for my own children’s sake. It is a blessing in disguise, however that has triggered more alternate plans in motion through my subconscious that even I am still at a lost to explain or understand fully. All I know, here and now is that I must keep moving, searching and understanding the potential of human kindness, goodness and struggle of everyday people. If I cannot, then for some reason even I cannot stop whatever transpires next due to the energy I sent out back in March 2011. 3 pearls of Energy(and they are big suckers) to do as they wish – I have tried to re-incorporate them, but without success. They’re doing their Dance I suppose. I think that it is only through my own transformation that future events may somehow be also transformed. I wish I could explain more, but at this time, enough said in the hopes that in whatever I face, it must be natural and without corruption. The last part that I would like to share is my attempts of blending both the world of science with that of the spiritual. I’ve figured out how to play God with DNA, re-incarnation(this one is actually very simple, unreal). Yin/Yang but too dangerous to share without knowing it would not be used in the same manner as I see in the everyday Dance of Life. The last step is to attempt a Time Shift. Not so easy to prove Einstein and Stephen Hawking and live to tell about it and share. I guess I’m the guy for the crazy mission as they say. I’m not ready for that one yet and there’s still too many things to work out yet. How to do it safely in a manner that does not compromise everyone’s safety. This process as all other processes in my Dance of Life, I’ve tied together and bound so as not to compromise the integrity of the Whole Plan. One without the other fails big time. Master/Slave thing – they have to unite perfectly – maudit Virgo thing in me. Hence my search to understand that last energy – ouch perfectly. No deviation possible. Ah the Cancer is what makes me care enough not to have gone through with the worst parts of any plan. And wanting children badly enough to show it publicly and show my sincerity. Without them, this whole thing would have gone sideways quick – lost of control doesn’t help anyone. Hence Borami my son my treasure and Dharma well my wonderful daughter. You can thank all your lucky stars for their presence.

So for now however hard, I must continue to search uncorrupted energy – no not virgins, doesn’t do it for me. Lost and corruption of innocence through someone else manipulation is exactly what I abhor and condemn. Even duping gullible and naive people falls into this category. A person of free will must come into their own of their own volition and on their own terms at the right time and place. Free will – free choice – consciously. The transformation I believe is what will help, but even I am not sure. Time is ticking in the meantime and even I dare not fool around with all the variables – I am unwilling to change whatever will be, for that is what I am – Free will, consciously choosing not too interfere but to be a part of everything present and in the moment. I do so many things inside of myself on a daily basis, that it would be mind boggling to explain to everyone. It is like exploring the entire Universe in space – all internally – quite magical as I go about my everyday Dance of Life. I now understand completely lots of special people of many millenniums ago. Truly special people.